Monday, September 06, 2010

Karma


Sometimes, even if I don't want to, I've been feeling envy. I hate the feeling, the "why he/she and not me?" and the "I want that too". [Even worse if it is a friend. Even if I felt the envy just for a short moment I hate myself for that ugly feeling I can't control]

But lately I've been turning into some kind of Buddha; everyone around me (OK, a bit exaggerated - just three friends) got these public commissions and I just felt so happy for them. Not even a split second of envy. I had accepted that public commissioned art wasn't for me - and I was so happy that these really talented people were getting the opportunity. I felt calm and happy about my insight and then it happened; on Thursday last week I got a phone call - I had been chosen to sketch for a public commissioned art piece. The exterior of a school, something big. I will present my suggestion on December 3 and I will really have to fuck up in order not to get the commission - as I am not competing with anyone else.

The only thing I have to do now is to liberate 4 weeks during autumn in order to work on my suggestion...

9 comments:

Daniel Milton said...

Hurra vad kul, grattis!

Two Tigers said...

Alexandra, this is so true that negative thinking, especially wishing we had what others have, can bring bad things just as positive thinking can bring the good things! Doesn't always work when and how we want it to, but when it does - it's good for everyone! I'm happy for you and I don't even know you! So -congratulations on your commission and good luck with the project! Best wishes.

Veja cecilia said...

jag är sannerligen lycklig för din skulle, detta ska bli en spännande resa:)

Candied Fabrics said...

hooray - good news! I just love the whole "what goes around, comes around". Bravo!

Christine said...

Tillykke :-)) Både for jobbet, og for din indre Buddha :-)

barbara said...

congrats!

Anairam said...

Oh, I am so glad that your happiness for others spilled over into happiness for yourself! Congratulations on the project - I hope you will post about it when it commences!

aimee said...

hey there, buddha! good for you!! your feelgood post reminded me of a song from an awesomely cheesy 70s movie called "pete's dragon" that i loved when i was a kid -and one of the feature songs is called "there's room for everyone in this world." are you going to start singing like helen reddy?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7kbtevb7Cjk

●• Thereza said...

that's excellent news!
well, the thing about envy... we're all humans and at some point in life we're bound to feel it, even if it's just for a split second... good thing to always have Buddha's teachings next to one's heart.
congrats on the commission!
hugs